Hey everyone and welcome back to my blog for another post. Today I thought I would just sit down and write something casual about stuff that’s being going lately. Because as much as I wanted to really get into blogging consistently this summer I just haven’t really done it. And there are a few reasons for it. But I also just wanna catch you guys up as to where I am with life generally. So grab a cuppa and let’s have a catch up. So first off:
Why did blogging slip away a bit? Well like I said there are a few reasons that this happened, not that I wanted it to. But basically I wa just too busy for it and it slipped low down my list of things to do or think about. I think I managed to publish 3/4 posts during the 12-16 weeks of summer vacation that I did have and I’m not proud of it. I wanted to publish at least 10 posts. But I was either away and without my laptop, away on holiday and didn’t want to spent all day writing and staring at a screen or when I was at home I was at work and when I got home I just wanted to chill by having a bubble bath or watching Netflix. So that’s kinda why I just didn’t publish anything for a while and I am sorry about it. And it’s kinda why I’m working so hard right now to make sure I have consistent content scheduled and ready so it doesn’t happen again. But then… YOUTUBE HAPPENED. I never thought it would but this summer I ended up taking the massive plunge into the youtube universe and so far it’s been so much fun and I’m really enjoying it. I have more options with it and in some ways it feels more personal because I have to show my face loool. But as a whole I’m excited to see where youtube can take me and what I can do with it. It’s already helping smash fears and challenge myself, the whole talking at a camera for a lot of people to see thing… But it’s also a huge learning curve, in the two months I’ve had it I have taught myself how to use iMovie (with some help from a few fellow youtube friends), until I started youtube I had never used it so I’m getting better with practice. So what’s happening now? So as I write this I go back to university for my second year as a French and Spanish Student in T minus 2 days. Which to be honest I just so fucking scary and the closer it gets and the more it dawns on me the more anxious I get. I’ve felt out of sorts for most of this week and I’m only just getting back on track really. Which sucks. But the reason I’m scared af for this year: Second year actually counts for real towards my final grade at the end of all this. So i’m feeling the stress big time to make it count and get my money’s worth because this is one expensive venture my friends. And I know that second year will be harder than first year and I basically nearly crumbled last year so I need to get my mental strength into top notch to make sure that doesn’t happen again. I’ve also established that I am a creature of habit and I like what I know. I don’t like change basically. This stems from what was basically a trauma of being at college and having horrendous teachers who told me day in day out I was gonna fail. Yes seriously. So I find adjusting to new teachers really fucking hard now. It’s like in my head: how do I know if it’s gonna be okay, it could be a college 2.0. YAY. But this year is gonna be different at uni for me because I have moved back home. A decision that at first I was GUTTED about. But now I am thinking… THANK FUCK THIS HAPPENED. So I have got to navigate getting up earlier. We cry. Sorting out all the driving to the station crap. And I will officially be a commuter into Birmingham city centre for four days a week now. NOOOO. Not looking forward to having people’s pits in my face at 8am or having to fight against the snotty business people to get onto the trains. Moving out was fun but wasn’t all that great if I really think about it. Lots of shitty stuff. But also, seeing as my chronic illness has got worse over the last 6 months: hello blood tests, bloating to look like i’m pregnant and new medication that is 10 times stronger than what I was on before. I’m glad to be home where I have people to remind me to take my meds every day, a constant supply of healthy and nutritious food (which I haven’t gotta pay for) and the fact that the doctors is nearby if anything needs urgently looking at. It’s also a familiar environment for me. But also, as the academia gets harder it will be nice not having to worry about paying rent, paying bills, having my car all the time, be able to come home to food on the table every night without having to necessarily cook for myself and the most important thing… GETTING A GOOD NIGHT SLEEP EVERY NIGHT!!!! Because christ I missed my bed when I moved out. I did alright last year and that was with poor quality sleep and often disturbed sleep. Growing up as a rural/ suburbs gal has it’s pros and cons y’all. So I can only hope that this year I will do even better academically if I can get a good 7 hours or more sleep every night. But also, due to uni starting again, I have taken a month’s leave from work so I can sort myself out and settle back into the routines again. It’s the best perk of having your mom as your boss, I get time off unlimited basically and can have a month off with no questions asked. I’m hoping I can go back sooner than a month but it’s there if I need it. I mean it’s nice to have the freedom to plan stuff and go places but it means I will be poorer than I have been all summer long. *CRY*. But the time off for the sake of me mental health is worth the little financial setback. Always. But linked to the paragraph above about being back at home even though i’m having the month off it does mean that I can just go back after my break unlike last year where I had to give it up entirely. Which I was so gutted about. I love my job and I’m missing it already strangely enough. I feel lucky to be able to say that because not many people my age love their jobs. It’s not so much the work itself as it is knackering and very physical and kinda stressful, but it’s the people I have there. I have friends there now. Like actual work friends and I feel like an adult saying that out loud. And it’s at the point where whenever I go in someone is happy to see me which is like wow I’m loved. Aw. And I also have a best friend there too, actually which is the best thing ever and I never thought I would get a best friend through working. So being at home means I haven’t gotta give that up which does make me very happy. Anyway. Hopefully that has brought you up to speed with whats happening in the ‘casa and vida de jade’. Yes I felt like using crap Spanish for you there. You’re welcome. But yeah this should just keep you in the loop as to what is going on with me. If you got this far thank you for reading. But for now I will see you all soon for another post and normal content will resume soon. This was just a one off I swear. Love Jade xx
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